I let myself down all the time. I’ve been letting myself down since I knew about letting people down.
Case in point, I’m a writer and I have a blog that I don’t write in. A writer that doesn’t write.
Except sporadically, in bursts sufficiently snuffed by my crippling inability to write–and let be. The proverbial red pen comes out! I stop after each paragraph to read, edit and rewrite. I wonder, every single time, what the words I just typed on the page say about me. If I sound too trite, too much of a newb, if what they say is that I really can’t write very well after all.
I’m tired of caring. I really just want to do the things that I’ve learned allow me to scribble outside of the lines, or inside the lines if I please. Things that seal up the rough edges.
It may start to feel a little differently around here soon. My hope, xx fingers crossed xx, is that it will get downright weird.